OH THE HORROR !! ......kinda. Well I think some of my family/friends have "accidentally" found my blog . Whatever happened to respecting others' privacy ?! Can't a girl be left alone for a while is she wanted to?!?! UGH! Great so NOW I gotta change my blog link . I've decided to make a whole new blog (the same as this one...but with a different address). I'll be uploading all my previous entries into my new blog, and then I'll delete this blog . I'll let all my friends/subscribers know my new link. Thanks for understanding  . And wish me luck...got a LOT of uploading to do   .

Later dayz!

    Makeup; one of those things most of us girls are supposed to be experts on (or so it seems ). Everyone these days seem to be wearing makeup. The older I get, the more these things are being shoved at my face (& its really starting to bug me)! Now a days, almost EVERYONE I know is wearing it. Although I do like makeup (because it just makes me feel ...pampered! ), but I just don't like WEARING it.

    First of all, it ..somewhat makes me feel ..fake (which later leads to making me feel uncomfortable )! Even if I'm not wearing foundation (which I normally don't wear anyway). Even if its just a little eyeliner and a little lip-gloss, I just feel so fake ! I feel like its just not me (although I KNOW it IS me. I haven't worn makeup before because I thought I was too young. And I was. But, grade 12's coming up, so I'm thinking I should 'start' wearing a little, just to get used to it).

    Second (& most importantly/annoyingly), I DON'T KNOW HOW TO PUT ON MAKEUP !! UGH! What girl doesn't know how to use makeup ?!?! And...a girl like me! I'm one of the girly-est (and proud ) girl in my friends-circle (ALL of them use makeup by the way). So how is it that I don't know how to use makeup ?! The OUTSIDE me and the INSIDE me are SO DIFFERENT! How do I bring that INSIDE me ..OUTSIDE ??  ....

    Anywayyy so back to the main attraction! MAKEUP! HOW DO I USE IT??? What are some good makeup brands that are good for someone with really, REALLY sensitive skin ? And, any important techniques that would help a beginner? By the way, one of the biggest problems I have are my eyeliners getting smudged ! PLEASE HELP !! I WOULD SOOOO APPRECIATED IT  !! THANKK YOUU !

Here are a few cool widgets/gadgets I found around the net. I find these pretty useful! Enjoy ^^.

    Alright so, as some of you regular readers of mine know, I can be a crazy obsessed gamer once in a while . ... Okay so I don't know all the latest games all the "REAL" gamers know of (can't afford all those games ). But I do play games I find free online. So, here's one I'd LOVE to share with you guys. Hope you have fun . Also, comments on this (and your experiences with this game) would be GREATLY appreciated !! Thank you !! 

Alien Hive

Neutralize the unknown life forms!

Play this free game now!!

    Alright! So, a new year (school year) will start in less than a month, and I've got HUGE plans! I've decided that enough of whatever's happening! I can't stand living my life like this! This is not the life I want for myself and I'm FINALLY gonna do something about it. The thing with me is, I can talk the talk, but can't walk the walk. This time I, Insh-Allah, WILL "walk the walk" ! So, I'm completely re-designing my life! EVERYTHING'S gonna change (for the better), Insh-Allah! Well most things anyway. I don't expect things to be perfect, but definitely better than this. What I'm living right now isn't even a life! So I plan to do something about it. Anyway, that'll come soon (VERY soon). For now, lets talk blog.

    Since this blog of mine is a huge part of my life, (you could even say its my life 'in words'), and since I'm re-designing my life, I'm thinking I'll start with my blog. Yes, I've re-designed my blog more than once before. But this time, I'm re-designing the content too. The first thing I REALLYY wanna change is the INTRO (the paragraphs written below the title of my blog "Tia's Journal" ). From now on, I want things to be more ..POSITIVE. I know for a fact that everything won't be perfect all the time, and there will be times I'll feel really bad, and I'll definitely post that on here too. But, its just that, my life's ALWAYS been so ...NEGATIVE..? And one of the biggest causes is, obviously, me! I (like many others) have been through some tough times. But what made those times even tougher were my thoughts of low-ness and self-pitty and ...my negative thoughts in general! So enough of that! I - WILL NOT - FEEL LOW - ANY LONGER! Enough! K? Enough of my self-pitty-ness. I spend so much of my energy on feeling sorry for myself that I have no energy left on improving some of the few very important things that NEED improving!

    There's something I've learned ...from all this:
Life can be a drag! Many can't take living this so-assumed "gift" given to us by the all powerful creator, and so take the easy (and selfish) way out - suicide. Or, some (like the current me), just...live it. Live it like the dragged curse it can be. But I plan on living this life, not as a "curse", but as a "gift". There are hard times, and there are happy times. Everyone has them. We all gotta live them. So why not just live them to the best we can? Make them positive and hope we get something got out of it all. Either we survive through those hard times, with negativity and self pitty (which, I've also learned, takes away SO MUCH ENERGY). OR we survive through those hard times, with a smile on our faces...or at least try to (saving the huge amount of energy ..which can later be put to good use while having fun!). Anyway, that's the lesson I've learned. Insh-Allah I can take this lesson and use it to my benefits.

So, RECAP!; Blog design will be changing, and so will its contents! Check back for more updates, on my blog & my life =) . Thank you my lovely dedicated readers/visitors, my fellow bloggers, friends, and of course, my beloved journal (you have a special place in my heart that only you can fill!). Mwahz to all!

POST DELETED! (Decided to re-think this whole thing). Didn't wanna delete this WHOLE post & wanted to remember this. But don't wanna talk about it completely. Sorry to anyone who wanted to read it.

    Okay so I'm currently taking the breath of my life! I feel like I can FINALLY clear my mind. Although I'm still kinda scared to clear my mind, in fear that I'll let go of something very important. Anyway, ugh! I donno what to talk about. I mean I have sooo much to talk about, but just cant seem to put them all together. I guess I still have a lot on my mind. Still need some time to calm myself down. Anyway, will make more posts laters. Ariit? Later timezz =) .

    Here's my last and final (for now) planning post. It'll be very long and very "wild". But if this can help to clear my mind and calm my nerves, I'll be happy & all this typing will be worth it! So here goes:

DAILY SCHEDULE:

Monday - Thursday

• 6:00 - 6:05 AM - Wake up & wash up
  
• 6:05 - 6:40 AM - Exercise/Stretch
• 6:45 - 7:15 AM - Shower
  
• 7:20 - 7:30 AM - Pray (Fajar)*
  
• 7:30 - 7:45 AM - Get ready for school
• 7:45 - 8:00 AM - Eat breakfast (healthy)
• 8:00 - 8:05 AM - Get to the bus-stop
  
  
• 8:05 AM - 3:50 PM - At school
  
  
• 3:50 - 3:55 PM - Wash up
• 3:55 - 4:10 PM - Pray (Zuhar)*
• 4:10 - 4:35 PM - Exercise
• 4:35 - 4:50 PM - Quick shower
• 4:50 - 5:00 PM - Eat Lunch (healthy)
  

• 5:00 - 5:50 PM - Study
• 5:50 - 6:00 PM - Take a break
• 6:00 - 6:50 PM - Study
• 6:50 - 7:00 PM - Take break/Pray (Aasar)*
  
• 7:00 - 7:50 PM - Study
• 7:50 - 8:00 PM - Take break/Eat dinner (healthy)
  
• 8:00 - 8:50 PM - Study
• 8:50 - 9:00 PM - Take break/Pray (Magrib)*
  
• 9:00 - 9:55 PM - Study
  
  
• 9:55 - 10:00 PM - Get books/bag organize, brush, & get ready for bed
  
• 10:00 PM - 10:10 PM - Pray (Esha)*
• 10:15 PM - 6:00 AM - Asleep

Friday

• 6:00 - 6:05 AM - Wake up & wash up
  
• 6:05 - 6:40 AM - Exercise/Stretch
• 6:45 - 7:15 AM - Shower
  
• 7:20 - 7:30 AM - Pray (Fajar)*
  
• 7:30 - 7:45 AM - Get ready for school
• 7:45 - 8:00 AM - Eat breakfast (healthy)
• 8:00 - 8:05 AM - Get to the bus-stop
  
  
• 8:05 AM - 3:50 PM - At school
  
  
• 3:50 - 3:55 PM - Wash up
• 3:55 - 4:10 PM - Pray (Zuhar)*
• 4:10 - 4:35 PM - Exercise
• 4:35 - 4:50 PM - Quick shower
• 4:50 - 5:00 PM - Eat lunch (healthy)
  

• 5:00 - 5:50 PM - Study
• 5:50 - 6:00 PM - Take a break
• 6:00 - 6:50 PM - Study
• 6:50 - 7:00 PM - Take break/Pray (Aasar)*
  
• 7:00 - 7:50 PM - Study
• 7:50 - 8:00 PM - Take break/Eat dinner (healthy)
  
• 8:00 - 9:50 PM - FREE TIME !!
  
  
• 9:55 - 10:00 PM - Brush, do Azu & get ready for bed
  
• 10:00 - 10:10 PM - Pray (Esha)*
  
  
• 10:15 PM - 6:00 AM - Asleep

Saturday

• 6:00 - 6:05 AM - Wake up & wash up
  
• 6:05 - 7:00 AM - Exercise/Stretch
• 7:05 - 7:35 AM - Shower
  
• 7:40 - 7:50 AM - Pray (Fajar)*
  
• 7:50 - 8:10 AM - Clean Room/Bed
  
• 8:15 - 8:30 AM - Eat Breakfast (healthy)
  
  
• 8:30 - 9:20 AM - Study
  
• 9:20 - 9:30 AM - Take a break
  
• 9:30 - 10:20 AM - Study
  
• 10:20 - 10:30 AM - Take a break
• 10:30 - 11:20 AM - Study
  
• 11:20 - 11:30 AM - Take a break
  
• 11:30 - 12:20 PM - Study
  
• 12:20 - 12:30 PM - Take a break/Snack (healty)
  
• 12:30 - 1:20 PM - Study
  
• 1:20 - 1:30 PM - Take a break/Pray (Zuhar)*
  
• 1:30 - 2:20 PM - Study
  
• 2:20 - 2:30 PM - Take a break
  
• 2:30 - 3:20 PM - Study
  
• 3:20 - 3:30 PM - Take a break/Eat lunch (healthy)
  
• 3:30 - 4:20 PM - Study
  
  
• 4:20 - 4:30 PM - Take break/Clean room
• 4:30 - 6:30 PM - Go out to get some exercise
  
• 6:40 - 7:00 PM - Quick shower/Pray (Aasar)*
  
  
• 7:00 - 7:50 PM - Study/Sew
  
• 7:50 - 8:00 PM - Take a break/Eat dinner (healthy)
  
• 8:00 - 9:00 PM - Study/Sew
  
• 9:00 - 9:10 PM - Pray (Magrib)*/Take a break
  
• 9:10 - 9:40 PM - Study/Sew
  
  
• 9:40 - 10:00 PM - Clean up, brush, do Azu, get ready for bed
• 10:00 - 10:10 PM - Pray (Esha)*
  
  
• 10:15 PM - 6:00 AM - Asleep

Sunday

• 6:00 - 6:05 AM - Wake up & wash up
  
• 6:05 - 7:00 AM - Exercise/Stretch
• 7:05 - 7:35 AM - Shower
  
• 7:40 - 7:50 AM - Pray (Fajar)*
  
• 7:50 - 8:10 AM - Clean Room/Bed
  
• 8:15 - 8:30 AM - Eat (healthy)
  
  
• 8:30 - 9:20 AM - Study
  
• 9:20 - 9:30 AM - Take a break
  
• 9:30 - 10:20 AM - Study
  
• 10:20 - 10:30 AM - Take a break
• 10:30 - 11:20 AM - Study
  
• 11:20 - 11:30 AM - Take a break
  
• 11:30 - 12:20 PM - Study
  
• 12:20 - 12:30 PM - Take a break
  
• 12:30 - 1:00 PM - Study
  
  
• 1:00 - 1:15 PM - Pray (Zuhar)*
• 1:15 - 1:30 PM - Eat lunch (healthy)
  
• 1:30 - 6:00 PM - Family time!
  
  
• 6:00 - 6:30 PM - Pray (Aasar)*/FREE TIME!!
  
  
• 7:00 - 7:50 PM - Study/Sew
  
• 7:50 - 8:00 PM - Take a break/Eat dinner (healthy)
  
• 8:00 - 9:00 PM - Study/Sew
  
• 9:00 - 9:10 PM - Pray (Magrib)*/Take a break
  
• 9:10 - 9:40 PM - Study/Sew
  
  
• 9:40 - 10:00 PM - Clean up, brush, do Azu, get ready for bed
• 10:00 - 10:10 PM - Pray (Esha)*
  
  
• 10:15 PM - 6:00 AM - Asleep

* Note: Prayer times will change, and my schedule will change according to the prayer times.

Here's the next part of my previous "Planning Post". One more Planning Post left to post (for now). If I'm lucky, maybe these Planning Post will actually be useful.

GRADE 12 COURSE LIST:

• English
• Advanced Functions
• Calculus
• Biology
• Chemistry
• Writer's Craft
• Keyboarding
• [Spare]
  

GRADE 12 MARKS LIST:
(Coming Soon...)

    Here are a few things that have been & is currently running through my mind. I'd love to get these things OFF my mind right now so that my headaches will finally be gone! But I'm afraid that if I try to clear my mind, and actually succeed, I might actually forget some of these very important things and then end up doing more damage. This is only for my mental (& hopefully physical) benefit.

SUMMER MAJOR MUST-DOs:

• Summer School (Math): Get above 95%.
  
• Fix Schedule: Schedule must include prayer times, homework times, eating times, exercise times, & personal times. Note: Schedule in next post.
  
• Work on Physical Appearance: fit/healthy (weight: 20 or below), clean/neat, appropriate clothing for appropriate occasions.
  
• Work on Specific Skills: people skills, attitude (respectful yet fun, mature, polite).

UPCOMING EVENTS (in order):

• Movies with Friends - Saturday, July 5, 2008
  
• Badminton with Friends - Date not set yet
  
• Tennis with Friends - Date not set yet
  
• Sanjana's Birthday Party - Canceled
  
• Stella's Birthday Party - Date not set yet
  
• Tia's Privet Party - Date not set yet
  

GRADE 12 / After Summer GOALS:

• Schedule: Maintain the right schedule.
  
• Marks: Get above 95% in ALL courses.
  
• Maintain Physical Appearance: fit/healthy (weight: 20 or below), clean/neat, appropriate clothing for appropriate occasions.
  
• Maintain the "Specific Skills": people skills, attitude (respectful yet fun, mature, polite).  
  

GRADE 12 COURSE LIST:
(In separate post)

GRADE 12 MARKS LIST:
(In separate post)

DAILY SCHEDULE:
(In separate post)

    So here I go again, organizing my life! When will I ever learn that organizing/planning little goals don't really work?!...Or so I've been told. But, to tell you the truth, this "organizing" in a way makes me feel..good. It gives me sort of a hope - a hope that everything is possible...all I gotta do is plan, then do it! It also helps me to clear my mind. I have so much things going on in my head. Once I write it down or make a list, I feel that I can just clear my mind, let everything go (without having to think that if I clear my mind, I might forget something and then miss out on doing it). And whenever I want to check to see what things I need to do, I just check that list I made earlier. Anyway, a lot of things I'm doing here in my little blog world might seem very meaningless...but that's exactly what I love so much about it. This is one place in the whole wide world where nothing has to be "meaningful"...at least not to the real world anyway. Everything here is MEANINGFUL..but only to me  . Anywayyzz!! My next post will be a "planning post" ...which is where I plan/organize stuff..for my mental benefit (if not physical). Bear with me .

Okay so, recently I found some pictures of a few Bollywood stars, without makeup. These pictures took me by such a surprize that I thought I really should share them with my fellow readers. There's a "with makeup" picture & a "without makeup" picture. Enjoy  .

Note: Most of these actresses still have some makeup on. Just not as much as they do on screen.

AISHWARYA RAI (Miss India Runner-Up)



* Although I don't particularly like this actress very much, I think she looks fine without makeup.

AMISHA PATEL



* I personally love Amisha Patel (at times), although she is known to be a little, let's just say, "over-dramatic". Her "without makeup" shot really took me by surprize (as have many other stars). I really didn't expect her to be this out-of-shape! Well, something about her still seems very attractive, but definitely not "star material".

AMRITA ARORA





* Amrita Arora isn't one of those stars I'm very familiar with. But she's always seemed very pleasing to me. I always thought she seemed pretty attractive. But seeing her without makeup has made me re-think my opinion about her. But, then again, I'm sure there are stars worse than her..?

BIPASHA BASU





* I must admit, I was scared to look at Bipasha's "without" picture. I was afraid I'd have a whole new view of her. And guess what? I do! I've always LOVED Bipasha, not because she's a sexy & sweet, but because she's got a great personality and has some serious quality! After seeing her "without" picture, I'm seriously surprized..but in a good way! She looks even better without her makeup (my favourite picture: "without" makeup, top right.)

[will add more later!]....

Okayyy well, I have officially learned a new lesson; stress isn't good in ANY WAY or FORM! Thanks to exams & school, I'm stressed from head to toe! Every part of my precious body hurts! I've had my first nose-bleed a while ago, my skin is breaking out like CRAZYYY (even more than usual! And having super-sensitive skin isn't very helpful either), ANNND my head aches like there's no end! I'm also ALWAYS staying up at night, either worrying about school or worrying about something else in my life....soooooo I'm ALWAYS tired! And, if you haven't noticed by now, I'm seriously depressed. WHAT AM I TO DO?!?! Yeah I know, "Always think positive" ! But currently, I'm in no position to think "positive" ! Teen life SUCKS!!  !!! Ughh!!!!

Anyway! Anyone got a good tip on how to treat acne? Any good product recommendations? Natural products (preferably)? Ughh!! I NEED HELP!! I'm emotionally, physically, ANNND mentally COMPLETELY broken down right now!! And I have absolutely NO ONE to talk to! Well, I don't really blame my friends. They're going through a lot too. So I think the least I could do is spare them of my complaints and nags!  OH DEAR JOURNAL!! MY LOVELY LOVELY JOURNAL!! YOU'RE ALWAYS THERE FOR ME!!!! !! (Yes well, as you can see, I am not feeling too well. I'm so lonely and emo that I'm talking to a 'web page' ! )

ANYWAYZZZZZZZZZ!!! That's all for now!
Talkie more later! Take care & love you all my awesome awesome readers/visitors/friends! THANK YOU FOR SUFFERING WITH ME !!

Okay so, I'm changing my blog design...again. To what? I don't know yet. But it'll be something I like =D . I'm not even sure what colors I want for my new design. But whatever it is, I'll probably like it...or else I wouldn't be keeping it  . Anywayzz...so for now, my blog will look completely messed up. So don't be freaked by my crazy blog lol. It's only temporary.

That's all for now. More updates later... 

    Alright. So I'm thinking of making a personal website. I've started making a site before, but never got to finishing it. Now I'm thinking of making an official & COMPLETED site. What do you think? Good idea? Bad idea? Anyway, well...I just don't think I have the patience to make a site. And every time I start making one, I change my mind and then end up changing the entire look/layout of it, which takes up so much time that I end up not finishing the site at all ! I'm thinking I'll finish the site by the end of this summer.

Okay so anyway, more updates later! =)