A Little Fable
"Alas," said the mouse, "the whole world is growing smaller every day. At the beginning it was so big that I was afraid, I kept running and running, and I was glad when I saw walls far away to the right and left, but these long walls have narrowed so quickly that I am in the last chamber already, and there in the corner stands the trap that I must run into."
"You only need to change your direction," said the cat, and ate it up.
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So that was a short story I found online. It sounds "meaningful". But...like always, I didn't understand it. If you think you understand it, it'd be great if you explained it to me =D . Don't ask why, just wanted to know what it meant =) . Thank you 
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- Mood: FINE! =)
- Music: Hello - Speed
- Randomness: Mera Jhumka Uttha ke laiya yaar ve, jo geera tha bareli ke bazaar mein, etc etc (finish the song if you know it ..for all you desii people =D )
Hello EVERYONE!!
Wow! It's been a million years since I actually posted something!! I've been so neglectful to my dear dear journal, and my readers. I know I know, I've promised you guys a ga-zillion times that I would write more often. But honestly, school can be such a drag! Its been completely taking over my life. Life has no meaning anymore! Its always school school school. And its not like I've been studying like crazy and getting a great mark. So I feel like all my work is just going to waste. But then again, although I feel like I work really hard, recently I've been feeling that I don't work hard at all. I feel like I'm just so... limited. I feel like I'm so weak. I see people working like crazy, having the patience to work to their limits. And then I see me, and I feel as though I can't even compete with these other people.
Ugh! When will all this be over?! What does it take to just be happy for a little while?! I wish I could just forget EVERYTHING for just a little while! Forget everything & not have to worry about ANYTHING!! I honestly don't see a future for myself. My present AND my future seem to be hidden behind the darkness. Right now, I see myself locked up in a tall dark castle up on an isolated mountain far far away, surrounded by dark storm-clouds and lighting...and never to be freed again! (Dramatic Storytelling! Yay!). So anyway, that's today's tour of my mind. ANYWAYZZ!! ...Enough said. Now I've gotta go. Take care all!! And I know I've said this a million times, but forgive me for neglecting all of you. I LOVE U ALL <3 <3 !! Take care and will write more later 
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- Mood: FINE! =)
- Music: I forgot to listen to music today
- Randomness: Love you Sreya!! You ma 'lil' angel!! <3
February 16, 1991
...an amazing thing was born. It was named "Sreya" and was thereafter known as the girl that would bring pride & honor to the blessed "Chakraborty" family. But little did the Chakraborty family know, that this little amazement would bring more to their family than just pride & honor.
February 16, 2008
...17 years has passed and little amazing Sreya has grown into a beautiful, hard-working, talented young woman. As hoped by her family, she brought pride, honor, joy, and showered so much love that she could put Niagara Falls to shame (no hard feelings!). She won many awards at school, she was a professional (mini) dancer by the age of 16, and was also the life of her friends. Not only is she ALWAYS the top student in every class, she has also done what no other could ever do...live through the annoyance of Tia and still be able to smile to say "Love ya my sweet little chutkii". LOL!! Okay well that was my little melodramatic story about Sreya's life so far =P !! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SREYAA!!! Hope you have the BEST 17th B-DAY EVER!! I also hoped a lotta other stuff for you...but I already wrote it on your card lol. And I can't remember them anymore. Took a while to think them up 
. Anyway, LUV YA FOREVER MY SISTAA!!
You're my moon that lights up my night,
you're my wrong & you're my right.
you're my sis, I'm so proud of you,
for everything you did & everything you do.
you'll always be my little sugar plum,
you'll always be my favourite bubble-gum.
Through trials and tests, right by me you stood,
and gave me your hand whenever you could.
I love your little lunch-time jokes,
I love how you laugh at my chemistry class "shoulder-pokes" 
,
I wrote this poem 'cause I love my sis,
I give her a hug, and blow her a kiss 
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If I had one wish it would surely be,
To give you as much as you've given me.Dear bonnie-bug, Happy happy birthday to you!!
That's all I had to say, you know we all love you!! (Thanks for reading my not-too-great poem
)
If I ever get to meet the all Mighty Creator (for me, it's Allah), and I could only tell him one thing, I would thank him for blessing me with a friend like Sree. She's like the sister I never got to have. But I guess I got really lucky and got to have her as a friend instead. SISTERSS 4 LIFEE!!!
- Mood: Fine & Happy
- Music: I forgot to listen to music today
- Randomness: Love you Sreya!! You ma 'lil' angel!! <3
Okay yes, I'm 2 days late, but better now than never:
- Mood: Fine fine!
- Music: Barsaat (movie)
- Randomness: None!
Okay well I'm just making a really small entry to say that I'm so sorry, I haven't been able to make any new entries OR reply to any of your comments. I've been SOoOoO busy lately!! My life has completely turned into a roller-coaster ride! And mind you, I don't like roller-coasters! There hasn't been a single day that I didn't get homeworks from all my classes. And I'm sure this coming week I'll be having at least 3 tests. I also have a HUGE Fashion project which I have no idea how I'm going to do! I don't know where to begin AND my teacher is crazy!! Okay anyway, I think I posted an entry before my second semester started, saying that I probably won't be able to post as many entries anymore. Since currently it's the long weekend, I might post a lot of entries about all the exciting stuff I didn't get to talk about yet (and trust me, there's a LOT of exciting things that happened which I haven't told you about ). Anyway bye for now & take care. Lotssa lovez!
- Mood: Okay.
- Music: Whatever.
- Randomness: UGHH!!
Gone baby gone! Gone with the wind! Sahib is officially OUT of my life & OUT of my thoughts! LOL! I've said this many times and I'll say it again - "IT WASN'T TRUE LOVE" !! I'm glad it wasn't. He really wasn't my kinda guy. Okay who am I kidding?! He WAS my kinda guy (a little). But...I donno I wasn't ready to have serious thoughts about a guy yet. And a guy like Sahib. He's nice & all. But lately I've been noticing that he's a bit...arrogant. Okay maybe arrogant isn't the right word. But he IS a bit too in-love with himself. I thought he was the type of guy that knows what he wants, when he wants it, and how he wants it. I thought he was a very "stable" kinda guy. He's confident but a little TOO confident about himself.
I like a guy who knows he isn't flawless and isn't afraid to say so. But he also isn't completely unsatisfied with himself. He knows he's good at his own things but also bad at some things. I guess that doesn't really fit Sahib's description...or at least as far as I know. Anyway, so he's not in any of my classes for Semester 2. THANK GOD! I can FINALLY get on with my life! He's completely banned from my world! Anyway that's all. Take care & spread the love.
- Mood: Teary
- Music: Not in the mood.
- Randomness: Not in the mood.
Okay well, just now, while I was making posts on my blog and talking to Sreya, my mom brought up the topic of getting a baby. She's been trying to have a baby for a long time now. But she's not getting one. So she's being serious now and is going "what if I got a baby" and so on. I swear to everything that is important to me that I DON'T WANT A BABY!!!!!!! I LIKE BEING AN ONLY CHILD!!! I love babies but I SWEAR I will kill myself or something if my parents get another baby. She constantly keeps saying that it's for my own good. I'm so pissed that I actually got a little teary when she constantly kept bringing it up. I told her that if she really wanted a baby for herself, then that's fine. But I honestly hate it when she says it's for ME! I DON'T WANT A BABY SIBLING!! I've lived alone for 16 years of my life. And now having a baby would be such a big change for me that I wouldn't be able to take it. Don't I have enough problems already?!?!
My parents are young, but already pretty tuckered-out. My dad has serious back pains and my mom gets so sick sometimes that she faints and we have to call the ambulance. Getting a baby would probably make them even sicker, and then I'll be the one that will be stuck taking care of the baby. My mom says that they will make it so that I won't have anything to do with the baby if I wanted. And that'll make things better HOW?!?! I'm not the type of girl that would bail-out on her family. ANNND if I did leave the baby alone, when it grew up, it's gonna be like "my sister never cared for me" . She is STILL bringing it up...even after half an hour after we first started talking about it. I can't stop crying. Obviously I'm not screaming my guts out. But I can't stop my tears. Ughh! I hate my life so much! As soon as I have something to be happy about, something else comes along to make my life miserable. Honestly, sometimes I feel like my parents never understand me. My mom is the one that understands me the most. And I'm thankful because I have such understanding parents. But sometimes I feel like I can't talk to them about it. These are times when my dear journal is my best friend. I'd marry it if it was a real guy.
Anyway, will talk later. Don't feel like it right now. Take care.
- Mood: Whatever
- Music: None at all .
- Randomness: Don't feel like it !
Yesterday, Sreya, Stella & I went shopping together 
. It was soooo much fun. We were supposed to go today. But we knew we would be having a snow storm today 
, so we decided to go yesterday. Well, Sreya & Stella were their usual sexii, elegant & beautiful selves 
. And I was my usual "unattractive" self 
. People must have been wonder what I was doing with those two. "Those two look like such nice young ladies . Oh but, what's SHE doing with them?! I hope they aren't ACTUALLY friends with HER!" . <--- My version of what people must have been thinking of me 
. Yeah, yeah I know! I shouldn't be thinking such low thoughts about myself. But that's exactly how I feel. So sue me! Yeah I had a nice pink top and blue jeans on. And Sreya & Stella said I looked really pretty. But they ARE my friends...and like any great friends, they tried to make me feel good by saying I look beautiful. They might have actually meant the part about my "cute top". But come on, it's hardly believable that Tia would look "nice"...let alone "beautiful". Ugh! I swear I seriously gotta loose weight 
. I need to lose at least 10 pounds before I can even be satisfied with myself (or at least my "looks" ) . Well actually, I think I wanna worry more about my grades right now than my looks. Looks I can fix later, but once my grades are final...I can't fix them.
Okay so what else? ummm....oh yeah. So Sreya, Stella & I went shopping...but we didn't really buy anything . We had lunch 
, took some pictures 
, oh and had fun looking at all the stuff in the shops. It was fun. We'll go again sometime. Okay anyway, I'm done rambling 
. Gotta get going now. I'll make another post very soon. Take care & Spread the love !!
- Mood: Kinda pissed off!! But excited too!!
- Music: Tuneless
- Randomness: Randomless
Alright, I'm now obsessed with the thought of changing the current blog design. What do you think? Should I change it? I like my current blog design. But I would LOVE to come see a new blog design every time I make a post. I'm thinking of making it Valentines Day style...red & pink! Alright, so for the next few days, my blog will be under-construction. Therefore, if my blog looks messed up, please understand . Bye for now & take care .
- Mood: Happy but Sick!
- Music: Too many!
- Randomness: *Sniff*
Okay so, I went back-to-school shopping yesterday. I've always gone back-to-school shopping when I started a new grade. But this is the first time I actually had to do school shopping in the middle of the school year. I really needed new supplies. My old binders are still in use 'cause I wanna keep my old notes, just in case I need them next year. My pencils, pens, and all the other supplies are either done or completely worn out!! So, I went out and bought new pencils, pens, a sharpener, whiteouts, a small ruler, 4 new colorful binders, 4 packs of dividers, post-its, 4 notebooks, and paper. Lotta stuff! Annd I need a backpack too. My current even last 1 year. But, I think I'm gonna stop wasting things so much, and maybe fix up my backpack myself. A little stitching, a little patching, and a little bit of Tia-Style added on . I started organizing my binders already. I'll finish when school starts...'cause I don't really know how to finish it yet.
Okay so, in Semester 2, the courses that I have are Chemistry, Keyboarding (music), Fashion, and Math. All the pretty easy subjects. I'm glad i have Chemistry this semester, because Chemistry is my hardest subject and I can focus more on it. I thought Fashion would be pretty easy, but my friends that already took it said there are a LOT of handouts and sheet-works. So, I'm guessing it won't be as easy as I thought. Nonetheless, I'm gonna try my best . I can't WAIT till Math class!!! I LOVEEE Math and I can't wait to learn some new tricks and formulas !! I also can't wait till Keyboarding class! I've ALWAYS wanted to learn keyboarding. I used to have a really small keyboards set that I would play. But it was always too small to play with both hands. So I asked Daddy if he would buy me a real keyboards set, and he said YES ! Does he EVER say no?! lol. Anyway, so...I can't just BUY a keyboards set and not know how to play it. So I took Keyboarding class. I already chose my most important courses (Biology, Physics, Chemistry, Math, & English), and I still needed 3 more courses (because we have to have 8 courses in total). So I took Accounting (completed it last semester), Fashion, and Keyboarding. Oooo can't waiiit!!
Anywayzz, enough of my blabbering on-&-on. Gotta get going. I gotta start cleaning the house. It's outrageously messy. And since I have nothing better to do today, I'm planning on making today a "cleaning day" ! Well I'll start cleaning in 30 mins. First I wanna go watch some music videos on youtube 
. Talkie laterz and take carez!
- Mood: Happy & Pumped Up !!
- Music: Move Your Body - Johnny Gaddar (Hindi)
- Randomness: iloveyou like a crazy money!!
Yayyyy all my exams are OVER!! FINALLY!! NO MORE EXAMS!! Well, at least until next semester! Ohmygoshh!! I can't WAIT till semester 2! I have tough classes. But I'm very excited to have a new beginning. This semester, I plan to try MUCH harder, do ALL my homeworks everyday, study MUCH MUCH more for all my tests, and try much harder to just get a higher mark in all my classes. My goal in all my classes are 100% ! Yes I know that's probably impossible. But that will be my goal. If I get a little lower than that, I won't kill myself. But this will be my goal and I'm gonna give it all I've got PLUS more! I'm sick and tired of being that girl that is known as an "OKAY" student or a BAD student. I KNOW I'm not stupid, and I can do it if I just try REALLY REALLY hard. I want this SOOOOOO BADDD!!! And I've had enough of slacking off. It's time I seriously get into working hard.
I might not get enough time to make an entry on my blog very often. But i promise you - all my blog buddies and daily readers - that I'll post a new entry at least once a week, whenever I get a chance. I also promise you - all my blog buddies, daily readers, myself AND my beloved journal (yes I think of my journal as my friend ) - that I will try VERY VERY VERYYYY hard to get 100% or at least NEAR 100% in all my classes. This is my goal for now. I have many other goals but I'll try to work them out one by one. This is the one I'll be focusing on the most. Oh I need this SOOOO BAD!! Every time I get a low mark, not only do I disappoint myself & my parents, but I also feel so DANGGG stupid in front of all my friends & classmates & teachers. I'm NOT stupid! Yeah I do call myself that sometimes in front of people. But I KNOW I'm not stupid or hopeless. I just need a little...or actually BIG...push to get me started! That first step is just so unbelievably hard to take. But I'm gonna do it this year. It's now or never!!
Okay well, wish me luck my lovely beloved friends!! Take care and talkie again tomorrow!
- Mood: Okie
- Music: Wanna Wanna - Speed
- Randomness: Ugh!
Hello there all my oh-so-awesome visitors/friends/readers! How is everyone doing? Good I hope. I'm going okay. Nothing exciting going on. My exams are currently going on, but I decided to take a little break and come post an entry. Not that I haven't been taking wayy too many breaks already. I've been blankly staring into space...because I have no idea what I'm studying. Anyway, I'm gonna drink a little tea, and then get back to studying. Insh-Allah I can finally put all my mind into studying. Wish me luck . Oh and like my new font colors? Just wanted to try out a new font look. I like my old font too, but just using this new one for this entry.
Take care and talkie later .
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..because in this list, will the some of the oh-so-common goals that many have tried to conquer in their daily lives . Anywayzz...here goes:
- Do ALL 5 prayers EVERYDAY & try to do it on time!! (Those of you who don't know, in my religion, I'm supposed to pray 5 times a day at a given time. I always did these prayers but recently have been neglecting them. - I'M SOOOOO SORRYYY ALLAH!! FORGIVE ME!!)
- For every course in Semester 2, try to get 100% (or as close to it as possible).
- Don't have a huge problem with this. Just been neglecting some of the things and need to improve on some of these personal-care stuff (such as taking care of my hair 
. Anywayyyz...thank you for reading 
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